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Dark Energies & Light Imposters – Healing with Awareness


Dark Light Neutral

This is the conversation that needs to be had with those on the spiritual path, in particular lightworkers and healers. This topic has been in my awareness for a long time, and as a soul of the light, I have also felt between the shadows. The prodding lately has necessitated the sharing of information that some may balk at, particularly those who refuse to see what lay behind the smoke screen or veils of our respective ‘reality’. But information is constantly urging me to share.

We are cosmic explorers, and it is a vision of spiritual life, that focuses on how we live on this planet as spiritual beings, on the process by which we incarnate and become fully alive and ourselves in our daily lives, and on how we gradually transform our ordinary living and the life of the planet so that all beings can thrive within this sacred cosmos. With that comes energy, entities and influences out of the scope of our human capabilities…though those with extra-ordinary abilities can see and interact beyond this, some with control, some without.

Duality (good vs bad, yin vs yang, etc.) serves a great purpose, since it helps us (spiritual beings having a human being experience) to know through experience what it’s like to be us, a part of God, Goddess, Source, Divine Spirit/All That Is. And through our experience, as we mature spiritually, we aim to inhabit the realms of light more and more, or we are filled with light, or light drives out, or overcomes, darkness. Light is associated with pleasant spiritual experience and we seek the light as relief from the darkness of our human condition.

If you are working in or with the spiritual it is important to recognise the different kinds of darkness as well as light that exist along your path. Much is known about beings of the light, but beings of the dark are something some tend to avoid acknowledging. It’s so important to understand you can be a channel for both, although are you skilled enough to know what you are channelling?

What I share is intended to stimulate thought, reflection and dialogue with yourself and others. From my own point of view, I’m not religious, however I am spiritual so my terminology may vary (i.e I use Source, instead of God). My path is my own, as is yours, and we all have our own experiences, knowledge and interpretations, and I like to share what resonates with me based on that.

Let me introduce you to Audwin Trapman, who is a Love Energy Healer, Angel Healer, Light Worker, and Educator from Toronto. Audwin has experienced Dark Beings and Entities and has also heard from many others with similar experiences over the years. Having gone through a period of tremendous healing himself, he is now 100% devoted to helping others heal with the force of Love and Light.

It was no coincidence I found Audwin. His articles on his website resonated with a sense of my inner knowings, and expressed in words what I was thinking.  I would like to share with you some of his thoughts:

Our Beginning on Earth

“This is a journey we all have to take. No one starts off on Earth 100% in alignment with the Light. The default position therefore is that we all start off forgetting that we are Beings of Light and on a Soul level work with Darkness as it is our only other choice.

We all have registered abandonment and betrayal issues against God, His Angels, and the Higher Beings that work with the Light. Until these issues are healed we all resist the Light with our full Soul power and survival instincts. Again all that is left to us is the Dark. It is a slow and arduous journey for most of us to return to the Light. This takes many lifetimes.

We bring forward the issues and challenges of previous lifetimes with us as we reincarnate. We also bring forward the degree of Light and Dark that we had stopped at in our last lifetime. As we progress through our lifetimes we ultimately become lighter and lighter until we finally reawaken to the truth that we are Beings of Love and Light.

As we experience this journey we must consciously separate/free ourselves from the Darkness.”

The Truth About The Dark

 “I am having this conversation with more and more people so it became clear to me that it is time to write how the Dark also heals people and how they can impersonate the Light.

 It is a dangerous assumption to believe that just because healing is going on it must be the Light that is doing it. Actually that is a false belief.

 The truth is that the Dark are more than happy to provide healing to people, often quite dramatically, but with the unstated goal of then hooking into the Soul’s and life paths of those fine healers unknowingly working with them and the people receiving healing.

 This is the dynamic that is presently going on, on planet Earth: the Lightworkers working to free the Earth and its people of Darkness, and the Darkness simultaneously working to entrap those Lightworkers and the people asking for healing. Both the Light and the Dark know that it is a mass consciousness shift. The Light is totally and unequivocally shifting the consciousness of the Planet to the Light and the Dark is resisting it. Once a certain consciousness level is reached then the Earth and all its life will shift to a higher dimension or Ascension.

 Using healing as an enticement the Dark has been forming a spiderweb of hijacked Souls that are its means of trying to stop the Light.

 Most people have no idea that their Soul has been bound by invisible agreements with the Darkness. They just continue on with their lives thinking all is well and good. Until of course they try to remove the Darkness, and then the Darkness makes itself known.

 Here are some common Dark Beings that do healing (with Dark contracts attached) and even impersonate the Light: Dark Angels, Angel impersonators: elohim (not Elohim with the capital E), Annunaki Aliens. (Also will impersonate Angels), Reptilian Aliens, Grey Aliens, Over 10 other Alien species.

Humans that have passed on, and retain their identity from Earth. True Ascended Masters are few and far between and are acknowledged as such by other Light Beings and the Archangels.

 Ancestors. If your ancestors are still hanging around then they are stuck and have not returned to the Light yet.

 The Dark is often able to do profound healing’s and here’s why:

They don’t respect our free will to ask or choose and will do whatever they want to us, anytime they want. The Light would never do anything that was not asked for or in line with our highest growth and learning.

 The energies they use are Dark but still can be used for healing and transformations.

 They bind you with multiple Dark contracts in return for the healings they provide to you so they are very motivated to do this exchange.

 They know that you will in turn spread the contracts on to others if you are a healer and do healings for others. This includes passing on healing abilities to other healers as these Dark Beings in turn start to work with them. (To work with the Light the journey is one of healing our separation from God issues, the Light never just hands us or passes on healing abilities).

If you don’t know who you are working with and are just doing healing then by default it is the Darkness that you are working with. 

To work with the Light you must be very specific to ask for only Light Beings who are in alignment and ONE with God’s White Light. For example… Angel’s and Archangels of Light and Love.”

If you are interested in reading more about light and darkness and healing, please visit Audwin Trapman’s website and you can also booking a healing session.



Your Soul arrived on Earth – What did it choose to specialise in?


Ever since my early teens I have been reading and exploring spirituality and culture. There have been a few books that helped me immensely understand what I felt intuitively, as a clairsentient, but also the knowings I had about our Soul and why we are here.

It was only in recent times I discovered Dr. Michael Newton’s two books: Journey of Souls and then his second one, Destiny of Souls. I highly recommend these two books for anyone wishing to explore, ponder and resonate with their knowings and beliefs. In his books, Newton outlines soul specialities and give a wonderful perspective on why you chose to be You, born into the family you’re born into, with all the character traits, challenges, talents and gifts you have!

Because I love these books so much, I want to share some great excerpts to encourage you to deepen your relationship with your Soul Self so that you make decisions based on what you know your soul’s desire to be and, of course, to make your Guide’s extremely proud :).

I believe we are co-creators in this whole Earthly experience. (Quantum Physics shows that physical matter changes as soon as there is an Observer, observing the experiment! As soon as consciousness enters the equation the particle changes. Once a wave, now a particle!. So in reading the excerpts, see what resonates with you, as to what your soul may be specialising in.


The Transformers
Healers of the Human Body

“We do repair jobs on Earth – we are the clean up crew – transforming bodies to good health. There are people on Earth who have gray spots of energy which cause them to get stuck. You see it when they make the same mistakes over and over in life. My job is to incarnate, find them and try and remove these blocks so they make better decisions and gain confidence and self-value. We transform them to be more productive people.”

“Transformers are sent to other worlds between lives to study – those of us who like working with physical forms.”

An Example

S: I work with geometric shapes, such as spirals of energy, forming them in my mind to match the configuration of the particular trouble spot. Then I lay these energy structures around the gray areas. This sets up the areas to be repaired with my slow healing vibrations, like placing a hot pad on a sore muscle. You see, these souls were damaged on the way in and this…infirmity…only grows worse as the body develops on Earth.

Dr. N: (surprised) Back up a minute. What do you mean, “damaged on the way in”? I thought your work on Earth mostly involved contaminated energy from life’s trials?

S: That’s only part of the problem. When souls enter the human body o Earth they come into dense matter. Their host bodies, after all, contain primitive animal energy which is thick. The soul has a natural sort of pure, refined energy which does not easily blend with some human hosts. It takes experience to get used to all this. The younger souls especially can be damaged. They get knocked off their tracks early on and are….twisted.

Dr. N: And you might project different energy configurations with different people who are your patients.

S: Uh-huh, that is the job of the transformer. Their damaged energy lines are so…squiggly…they must be rearranged to remove the toxic energy. These muddled souls are so unbalanced that a lot of our work must be directed at all the cells of the body where negative energy is trapping the free flow of the positive. When this is performed properly the soul is more fully engaged with the human brain.

PS: on Earth in her current incarnation, S, practiced Reiki.

Another Transformer has this to say about her therapeutic touch methods:

The secret to healing is removing my conscious self so as to avoid inhibiting the free flow of energy between us. My objective is to merge with the energy flow of the patient to bring out the highest good in that body. This is done with love as well as technique.

The Regenerators
Healers of Souls Damaged by too Many Destructive Lives

“We work to reshape…to reorganize…displaced energy in the place of the holding ground.”


The Restoration Masters
A Master at energy repair working with the meridians of energy that need repairing. (usually not incarnating on Earth anymore)

An example of both Healers:

S: Before meeting the new arrival one of the Restoration Masters outlines the meridians of energy we will be regenerating. We review what is known about the damaged soul.

Dr. N: This sounds like you are surgeons preparing for a procedure with x-rays before the operation.

S: (with delight) Yes, this gives me an idea of what to expect in three-dimensional imagery. I love the challenges involved with energy repair.

Dr. N: Okay, take me through the process.

S: From my perspective there are three steps. We begin by examining all particles of damaged energy. Then these dark areas of blockage are removed and what is left – the voids – are rewoven with an infusion of new purified light energy. It is overlaid and melded into the repaired energy for strengthening.

Dr. N: Before you actually begin to work, what do you see when a soul’s energy has been severely damaged?

S: Damaged energy looks like a cooked egg where the white light has solidified and hardened. We must soften this and fill in the black voids.

Dr. N: Let’s talk a moment about this blackened energy…

S: (interrupts) I should have added that the damaged energy can also create…lesions. These fissures are voids themselves, caused by radical physical or emotional damage. Where the energy is mottled – not distributed evenly – this is due to long-term energy deterioration.

Dr. N: You talked about rearranging and repairing old energy with new purified energy for healing. How is this done?

S: By intense charge beams. It is delicate work because you must keep your own vibrational tuning…in matched sequences with that generated by the soul.

Wow eh??

One more excerpt from a soul arriving back from a difficult life

“Oh, it’s Numi – I’m so glad. I haven’t seen her in about three or four lives, but her deprogramming and restoration energy techniques are just superlative. There are five others being attended to in this place whom I don’t know. Numi comes over and clasps me to her. She gets inside me and blends my tired energy with her own. I feel the infusion of her stimulating vibrations and she performs a tiny bit of re-shaping. It is as if I am receiving a gentle reaffirmation of that which created by own energy. Soon, I am ready to leave and Numi gives me a beautiful smile goodbye till next time.”

 The Keepers of Neutrality
The Custodians of the Slumber Chambers

The Slumber Chambers are sanctuaries of quiet reflection where a soul might go if they want to rest and regenerate their energy in solitude.


S: The Keepers of Neutrality are skilled at noninterference. Their talent lies in ministering to us with absolutely no intervention into our thoughts. They are the custodians of the slumber chambers. They possess great skill in ministering to us. Their concern is the proper regulation and infusion of the energy which we have stored in the spirit world before going into a physical life.

Dr. N: I have heard a great deal about this attribute of the soul to divide itself. Why can’t you just go to your own spiritual area and take the rest of your energy and meld with it? Or why not have a team of Restoration Masters regenerate your contaminated energy?

S: (takes a deep breath) I’ll try and explain it. For us, all that is unnecessary. It is the effects of the impurities which we want healed by a slow, even return of our own purified, rested energy. The Keepers assist us in the restoring of our own energy.

Dr. N: Rather like getting a blood transfusion from your own blood bank?

S: Yes, exactly, now you are beginning to comprehend. We don’t want it in a rush. We don’t need major restoration either. We receive slow energy infusions of our own energy over a prolonged period for greater….elasticity. We want the strength we had before a rough life – and more – from having gone through the physical experience.

“The Keepers use their own vibrational frequencies to…massage our energy – which is fantastic.”

The Caretakers of the Environment
The Healers of the Plants, Trees and the Land


S: In my last life I was an Algonquian Indian with the name Singing Tree. My job was to insure our land would continue to supply us with food. I used to stand out in the forest for hours and holds out my hands. The tribe thought I was talking to the trees and the soil but actually I was exchanging energy with the land. It’s an extension of mind and body with some help from our guides.

Dr. N: And how about today?

S: When you create and support beauty and growth from the land, you also give power to others who live here. From your hands you provide a means by which others are motivated with the beauty of what they see around them, as well as receiving sustenance from the environment.

“Knowledge of vortex locations are very useful to planetary healers and caretakers of the environment.”

The “Guardian Angels”
Healers-in-Training that make regular trips to Earth In-Between Lives to Help People they don’t know that are in Difficult Situations

“My guide and I assisted a boy in India who was drowning and consumed by fear. His parents pulled him from the river and were trying to resuscitate him, but he was not responding well. I placed my hands on his head to quiet his fear, sent a spike of energy into his heart to bring warmth into his body and superimposed his essence with mine for a moment to help him cough up the water and start breathing again. We were able to help a total of twenty-four people on that trip to Earth.”

 The Redeemers of Lost Souls
They watch for souls who are ready to stop being obsessed about something on earth (what people refer to as ghosts) and move forward.

(from a young soul who was a ghost in a past life because she was obsessed with her husband that left her and she couldn’t bare to leave the house he said he was coming back to)

Dr. N: Please explain to me how all this comes to an end.

S: I am….called.

Dr. N: Oh, you have asked for a release from this sad situation.

S: (long pause) Well…not actually…sort of…..but he knows I am about ready. He comes and says to me, “Don’t you think this is enough?”

Dr. N: Who says this to you, and what happens?

S: The Redeemer of Lost Souls calls to me and I move further away from Earth with him and we talk while waiting.

Dr. N: Just a minute – is this your spirit guide?

S: (smiles for the first time) No, we are waiting for my guide. This spirit is Doni. He rescues souls like me. That’s his job.

Dr. N:What does Doni look like and what does he say to you?

S. (laughs) He looks like a little gnome, with a wrinkled face and a top hat which is all beat up – his whiskers shake when he talks to me. He tells me if I want to stay longer I can but wouldn’t it be more fun to go home and see Stanley there. He is very comical and makes me laugh but he is so gentle and wise. He takes me by the hand and we move to a beautiful place to talk more. He tells me to be joyful and he infuses my energy with love and happiness and purifies my mind. He lets me play like a child again among the flowers and tells me to chase the butterflies while he rests in the sun.Doni’s old face is so full of kindness and love, he never scolds. He just encourages me to play. His job is to bring my soul back to health by helping me cleanse my mind.

The Harmonizers
Restorers of disrupted energy on Earth

The Harmonizers

Wish to give people the means to help themselves where they can, but they are not the conscience of human beings and they do not interfere with our free will.


S: I am learning to adjust my energy beam to diffuse and rearrange the forces of negative human energy generated each day on Earth. It is like opening a dam to provide needed water to make the valley below fertile. I go to a huge dome to practice with my small group. Arlett is there, she is our instructor – very accomplished – catches our mistakes at once. It is here we practice the art of balancing vibrational disharmony. Eventually, we hope to smooth our large masses of disruptive energy patterns on Earth.

Dr. N: What happens in the dome?

S: It provides a geometric base for certain oscillations and intervals to simulate erratic waves of human thought from large groups. It is deliberately stirred up for us. We are supposed to smooth it out.

Dr. N: Mmm…to foster expressions of harmonic thought?

S: Yes, thought and communication. We also study vocal tones and analyze their meanings – anything which influences negative thought. We want to help people who wish to help themselves. This is not direct interference.

Dr. N: All right, Larian, but when you become proficient at being a Harmonizer Soul, what power will you possess?

S: We will become senders of recovering energy to combat mass disillusionment.The melody of a Harmonizer whispers through the corridors of Earth of better things to come. We are messengers of hope.

The Sages
Highly advanced souls that are still incarnating on Earth even though it is unnecessary for their own personal development. They are skilled linguists with the ability to phrase words in vibrational tones that deeply touch people. These wise beings are here because it is their mission to help humanity in a direct physical way. They are unobtrusive and may wish for no public attention.

The Watchers
These super-advanced beings do not incarnate but receive information from many sources about conditions on Earth and other worlds as well. Watchers provide information to other Harmonizers, who will act to moderate the affects of social and physical forces creating havoc on Earth.


The Dreamweavers
Implanters of Dreams

“The Dreamweaver souls I have come in contact with all engage in dream implanting, with two prominent differences.

1. Dream Alteration. Here a skillful discarnate enters the mind of a sleeper and partially alters an existing dream already in progress. This technique I would call one of interlineations, where spirits place themselves as actors between the lines of an unfolding play so the dreamer is not aware of script tampering with the sequences.

2. Dream Origination. In these cases the soul must create and fully implant a new dream from scratch and weave the tapestry of these images into a meaningful presentation to suit their purpose. Creating or altering scenes in the mind of a dreamer is intended to convey a message. I see this as an act of service and love.

(from a woman that just died and is trying to console her mother)

S: I begin with more conventional thought communication while she is awake but I am getting nowhere. She is so sad. My mother’s grief at not being at my bedside is overpowering her.

Dr. N: What methods have you tried so far?

S: I project my thoughts with an orange-yellow light, like the flame of a candle, and place my light around her head, sending loving thoughts. I’m not effective. She doesn’t realize I am with her. I am going for a dream.

Dr. N: All right, Sylvia, take me through this slowly. Please start by telling me if you pick out one of your mother’s dreams or if you can create one of your own.

S: I don’t create dreams well yet. It is much easier for me to take one of hers so I can enter the dream to effect a more natural contact and then participate. I want her to know it is clearly me in the dream.

Dr. N: Fine, now take me through this process with you.

S: The first couple of dreams are unsuitable. One is a muddle of absurdity. Another is a past life fragment, but without me in it. Finally, she has a dream where she is walking along in the fields around my house. You should know she has no grief in this dream. I am not dead yet.

Dr. N: What good is this dream, Sylvia, if you are not in it?

S: (laughing at me) Listen, aren’t you seeing – I’m going to smoothly place myself in the dream.

Dr. N: You can alter the sequence of the dream to include yourself?

S: Sure, I enter the dream from the other end of the field by matching my energy patterns to my mother’s thoughts. I project an image of myself as I was the last time she saw me. I come slowly across the field to let her get used to my presence. I wave and smile and then come to her. We hug each other and now I send waves of rejuvenating energy into her sleeping body.

Dr. N: And what will this do for your mother?

S: This picture is raised to a higher level of consciousness for my mother. I want to insure the dream will stay with her after she wakes up.

Dr. N: How can you be sure she won’t think this is all a projection of her desire for you and discount the dream as not being real?

S: The influence of a vivid dream like this is very great. When my mother wakes up, her mind has a vivid impression of this landscape with me and suspects I am with her. In time the memory is so real she is sure of it.

Dr. N: Sylvia, does the image of the dream move from the unconscious to a conscious reality because of your energy transfer?

S: Yes, it is a filtering process where I continue to send waves of energy into her over the next few days until she begins to accept my passing. I want her to believe I am still part of her and always will be.

The Protectors
Warriors for Good Causes

(from a resistance fighter who was tortured for information he did not give and who was staked to the ground and left to die a slow death in the hot sun. This is actually the same soul who needed the solitude with the Keepers of Neutrality to heal)

Dr. N: Please explain to me why you require such a long period of solitude after your life in Morocco?

S: I am a protector soul and my energy has still not recovered from the effects of this life.

Dr. N: What is a protector soul?

S: We try to protect those people whose innate goodness and intense desire to better the lives of large numbers of people on Earth must be preserved.

Dr. N: Who did you protect in Morocco?

S: The leader of the resistance movement against French colonization. He was more effective in helping our people fight for freedom because of my years of sacrifice.

Dr. N: This sounds demanding. Do you usually work with political and social movements in your lives?

S: Yes, and in war. We are warriors for good causes.

Dr. N: What attributes do protector souls have as a group?

S: We are noted for our enduring perseverance and calmness under fire while assisting others who are worthy.

Dr. N: If you challenge those who would seek to harm the people you want to protect, who decides if they are worthy? It seems to me this is a very subjective thing.

S: True, and this is why we spend time analyzing in advance where we can best be utilized to help people. Our work can be offensive or defensive in nature but we do not engage in any aggressive action lacking principle.

 The Incubator Mothers
The Midwives

“We help the new souls emerge at the place of ‘hatching’. We facilitate early maturation…by being warm, gentle and caring. We welcome them. Through us, not from us, comes a life force of all-knowing love and knowledge. What we pass on with our vibrations during the drying of new energy is…the essence of a beginning – a hopefullness of future accomplishment. The mothers call it…”the love hug.” This involves instilling thoughts of what they are and what they can become. When we enfold a new soul in a love hug it infuses this being with our understanding and compassion.”

“Each soul is unique in its totality of characteristics created by a perfection that I cannot begin to describe. What I can tell you is that no two souls are alike – none – ever!”


Dr. N: Please explain the surroundings of the place to me.

S: It’s…gaslike…a honeycomb of cells with swirling currents of energy above. There is intense light.

Dr. N: When you say ‘honeycomb’, I wonder if you mean that the nursery has a beehive structure, or what?

S: Um, yes…although the nursery itself is a vast emporium without seeming to be limited by outside dimensions. The new souls have their own incubator cells where they stay until their growth is sufficient to be moved away from the emporium.

Dr. N: As an Incubator Mother, when do you first see the new souls?

S: We are in the delivery suite, which is a part of the nursery, at one end of the emporium. The newly arrived ones are conveyed as small masses of white energy encased in a gold sac. They move slowly in a majestic, orchestrated line of progression toward us.

Dr. N: From where?

S: At our end of the emporium under an archway the entire wall is filled with a molten mass of high intensity energy and…vitality. It feels as if it’s energized by an amazing love force rather than a discernible heat source. The mass pulsates and undulates in a beautiful flowing motion. Its colour is like that on the inside of your eyelids if you were to look through closed eyes at the sun on a bright day.

Dr. N: And from out of this mass you see souls emerge?

S: From the mass a swelling begins, never exactly from the same site twice. The swelling increases and pushes outward, becoming a formless bulge. The separation is a wondrous moment. A new soul is born. It’s totally alive with an energy and distinctness of its own.

The Archivists
Guides souls through their Life Books in the Great Library (Akashic Records)

“Our guides decide on the most effective means for self-discovery in the library. The design and scope of these investigations then comes under the jurisdiction of the Archivists.”

“These records give the illusion of books with pages, but they are sheets of energy which vibrate and form live picture-patterns of events.”


My next two cases represent the exposure of souls to spiritual libraries and the impact seeing their records has on them. In both cases there is evidence of the use of altered reality, with some differences. The woman in cas 29, a suicide case, will be shown a series of alternate choices she could have made in her past life, presented in four coexisting time sequences. The first timelines was the actual life itself. She will be more of an observer than a participant in these scenes. With case 30, however, we will see the employment of a single scene with an altered reality where the soul will dramatically enter a scene from his past life to actually experience a different outcome. Both cases are designed to show the many paths in life involving choices.

**The actual cases are too long to be presented here but let me just say that the Life Books are fascinating! Totally alive and ‘real’!**

 The Guides & The Council of Elder
Guides that are assigned Soul Groups & the higher level beings who form the Panel or Council of Elders

“They appear to represent the last station of beings responsible for souls still incarnating on Earth. These wise beings have great compassion for human weakness and they demonstrate infinite patience with our faults.”

After every life, you go before the Council of Elders – here is a typical response to Michael Newton’s question about what it’s like:

The time of my expectation has arrived. I am to see the Holy Ones. My guide, Linil, comes and escorts me from my cluster group down a long corridor past other classrooms. We move into another area with a larger hallway that is lined with marble columns. The walls are textured with what looks to be frosted glass panels of many colours. I hear soft choir music and string instruments. The light is a subdued, golden tone. Everything is so relaxing, even sensual, but I am a little apprehensive. We come to an atrium filled with beautiful plants and a bubbling fountain of water. This is the waiting area. After a few moments, Linil takes me into a round room with a high domed ceiling. There are rays of light shining down. The Holy Ones are seated at a long crescent-shaped table. I move to the center of the room in front of the table while Linil stands behind me to my left.

Dr. N. says: “I’ll admit that when I initially heard about these hearings there were doubts in my mind. I felt that if a soul was summoned to appear before a body of higher beings, there were going to be certain punitive aspects to a karmic review. This was due to my own cultural conditioning. Finally, I cam to the realization that going before a council has many facets. The Elders are like loving but firm parents, managing directors, encouraging teachers and behavioural counselors all rolled into one. What souls feel for their council is reverence. Actually, souls themselves are their own severest critics. I find evaluations by our soul group companions to be far more acerbic than any council Elder, although our peers do lace their criticism with humour.”

The following is from a soul who is training to be a Guide. He got to sit in on the Panel of Elders:

“When I sat on a panel it was like being inside the soul in front of you. What you feel is much more than empathy toward someone who has just come back from a life. You are really in their shoes. The Presence gives you the power to feel everything the soul feels at the moment. The prism of light from the Presence touches every council member in this way.”

The Gameskeepers
These are the specialist trainers who will expose those adventuresome beings who show talent to trips into different dimensions.

(from a highly advanced soul who wishes to specialize as a Traveler)

Hide-and-seek in the spirit world begins as an exercise between light and darkness. With the younger souls we charge up our energy from a distance and then wink it out when the kids come in our direction. We block and then open up our telepathic energy at the same time to mix up the visual and mental signals. In the beginning we create doorways of light within structured columns of energy which are employed as shadowed panels which may be arranged in parallel or horizontal lines. Later we make them random geometric patterns. Most young ones have a terrible time learning to detect and find us as we dart between the doorways, but they have fun because at this stage they still consider this playing a game.

Some become so good we can’t trick them anymore. In time these souls – those that want to continue – become trainees and are ready to be ushered into our playground of interdimensional zones, which are divided by energy barriers and vibrational pulse rates. This is tough because the trainees must learn to adapt to different wave configurations which exist within each dimension and match their energy quickly to pass through. We lose many souls at this point who don’t wish to continue. The work is like being in a hall of mirrors. The souls like me, who refuse to quit because we love the work, must now master the mental dimensions without structure or form. They exist as vacuums between the physical dimensions. Part of me still considers this training as recreation. It is so captivating I can’t wait to get back home and engage in this exercise again with my friends.

The Nursery Teachers
Caretakers of young souls

(from a very young soul who recalls visiting Earth in spirit before actually having to incarnate)

I remember when I was a very young soul and came to Earth for the first time with a couple of friends. As spirits we floated around to check our capacity and adaptability to this place while accompanied by our teacher. We were shown how to collect the magnetic vibrations of this planet and blend them with our own. We needed to feel what it would take for us to be in physical form here.

(from a woman who is working with souls that have just begun to incarnate)

I have my hands full right now with seven goof-offs. They like being playboys and playgirls during their incarnations. They just want to stay as children and not take life seriously. They are overly fond of earthly pleasures and don’t want to deal with the hard stuff. Their major interest is looking beautiful in the next life. Ulant, my senior guide, has left them with me and I don’t see him very much. I’ll admit my style is extremely lenient. I use lots of gentleness and love. Some of the other teachers say I spoil them outrageously. I know of teachers who express a lot of frustration and become stern with their young students, especially those with potential. The council is interested in my teaching methods. They want to test my theories of permissiveness rather than giving this class a mental spanking. My concept of teaching is that once these child souls do start to develop, the leap they will take into maturity will be more rapid because they won’t have had their self-confidence shaken by too many hard lessons and setbacks too soon.

The Ethicists
Working with the moral codes of intelligent beings


Dr. N: Andarado, we have talked about your work in the spirit world with teaching students. You have also explained a little about your energy creation studies with the thought processes of lower forms of life. This leads me to conclude you are preparing to be a specialist in either teaching or design.

S: (laughs) Neither is true. I am training to be an Ethicist.

Dr. N: Oh? How about these two areas of your early studies we have just talked about?

S: They have been offered to me as prerequisites so I will be more effective as an Ethicist. This is my passion, working with the moral codes of intelligent beings.

Dr. N: But isn’t the reviewing of morality, values and the standards of conduct basic to the work of all teaching guides?

S: Yes, but moral principles as they relate to objective values are so essential to human development one can specialize in that field. There is usually one Ethicist on every council.

Dr. N: Why did you spend so much time on another world before coming to Earth? (*he began his incarnations on a dark, quiet world with intelligent, although unemotional, life forms who were dying as a race. This was a world devoted to reason and logic. Eventually, Andarado asked for a transfer to a brighter world where he could incarnate into a more sensitive being. He was given Earth. He’s what Michael Newton found to be a ‘Hybrid Soul’. Hybrid’s have incarnated on planets other than Earth*)

S: Being versed in the morality of other intelligent societies is good training for any Ethicist.

The Explorers
Travel to physical and mental worlds in our universe and even into other dimensions. Their work ethic is one of reconnaissance.

“I was told that to become an Explorer I would have to experience many realities by beginning my travels to physical worlds, and then escalating to the mental existences and interdimensional travel.”

Two different souls describe what it’s like to experience Travel

“From the spirit world to a physical world it is like a door opens and you see the walls, of what appears to be a hallway, a tube, whirling past on either side. Then another portal-type doorway opens and you are there.”

“When I pass into another dimension to a mental world I am like a piece of static flowing through a TV screen into magnetic zones structured by pure thought. The voids are composed of large, pulsating fields of energy. I feel the power of this energy more than when I go to a material universe because we must adapt our wave resonance to existing conditions in order to easily pass through. I want to keep my energy tight, so I don’t get lost. These trips are not instantaneous, but almost.”

Michael Newton says: The Explorer Souls do not emphasize a polarity of light and darkness in their travels as much as other elements. These could include a restless or serene environment, thin or heavy density, physical or mental domains, and conditions lending themselves to what has been described as “purified or coarse intelligence.” Traveler souls who move into different realms of cosmic consciousness must learn to align their energy with symmetry to local conditions within these demarcations. Explorer guides can take souls on brief visits to higher dimensional levels to raise their consciousness. In the minds of many subjects, these trips don’t last long and this is probably to avoid overwhelming younger souls.

A soul describes another world they travel to

We are taken by the travelers to the place of the Quigley’s. They are the size of a muskrat, fat and fluffy with a forehead similar to a bull-nosed dolphin. The Quigley has big, round ears and straight-out whiskers. They have the IQ of perhaps a smart dog. They are devoted and happy animals who love us. Their planet is an ancient, mystical land of gently rolling hills and valleys carpeted with flowers and small, delicate trees. It is very bright here and there is an inland body of fresh water. We relax and play in this world of perfect peace.

From a “Hybrid Soul” who was taken, by a Traveler to visit a similar world to the one he first started physically incarnating on. (Hybrid Souls are souls who started incarnations on non-Earth planets. For various reasons (their planet was destroyed or maybe they are training to be an Explorer themselves) they chose to finish up their physical incarnations on Earth. Many Hybrid Souls complain of poor immune systems until they have had enough Earthly lives to rid their body of old imprints.)

Between my lives on Earth, I visit a water world called Anturium, which is so restful after a difficult life on land. Anturium has only one land mass, the size of Iceland. I come with a few of my friends who also have an affinity to water. We are brought by an Explorer-guide who is familiar with this region. Here we join the Kratens, who look a little like whales. They are telepathic and a long-lived race who do not mind our coming and mentally connecting with them for a while. Occasionally, they gather at certain locations to telepathically communicate with intelligent aquatic life forms who exist on two other planets (around stars in the galactic vicinity of Anturium). What I love about this place is the unity and harmony of thought with the Kratens which rejuvenates my mind and reminds me of my original planet.

(a really fascinatingly wild dialogue with a Hybrid Soul)

Dr. N: So what does Phinus, your guide, say to you when he meets you in the spirit world after your life in India?

S: She says, “Welcome back, how did you like the ride?”

Dr. N: And what is your response?

S: Did it have to be so terrible?

Dr. N: Deos she agree with your assessment of life in India?

S: Phinus reminds me that I volunteered to have a difficult opening life on Earth because I wanted to receive the full impact of a disruptive planet. I was the poorest of the poor in India and lived in squalor.

Dr. N: Did you want to suffer this much in your initial life?

S: The life was terrible and I didn’t handle it well. When a childless family took my daughter against my will by paying the owner of the shack where I lived, I became so distraught I could not function. (Kanno jerks in his hcair and emotionally relives the moments after his last death) WHAT KIND OF PLANET IS THIS ANYWAY? PEOPLE SELLING CHILDREN!

Dr. N: (at this point I do not yet know about Kanno’s hybrid origins and I make a wrong assumption) This does seem as though it was a very difficult first incarnation for a new soul on Earth.

S: Who said I was a new soul?

Dr. N: I’m sorry, Kanno. I just assumed that right now you are only in your second incarnation on Earth.

S: That’s true, but I’m from another dimension.

Dr. N: (startled) Oh, then what can you tell me about this other dimension?

S: We had no physical worlds as you have in this dimension. My incarnations were on a mental world.

Dr. N: What did you look like on this world?

S: I had an elongated, flowing body – spongy, with no skeletal structure. We were rather transparent forms of silvery light.

Dr. N: Did you prefer a certain type of gender?

S: We were all hermaphrodites.

Dr. N: Kanno, please explain the difference between travelling to the dimension of your origins from the spirit world as opposed to coming into our universe.

S: In my dimension movement is like going through soft, translucent filaments of light. Coming into your universe is like plowing through thick, heavy, moisture-laden fog.

Dr. N: And being on Earth for the first time – what was that like compared to your home world?

S: Having concrete tied to your feet. The first thing you notice is the heavy weight of the dense energy here compared to a mental world. (pause) It isn’t just heavy – it’s coarse….severe…I was really jolted in that life in India.

Dr. N: Is all this a little better now – are you becoming acclimatized?

S: (without confidence) To some extent. It is pretty difficult…

Dr. N: I can see that. Kanno, what is the most troubling aspect about the human brain for you?

S: (abruptly) Ahh – it’s the impulsive behaviour – the physical reaction to things – without analytical thought. There is danger in connecting with the wrong kind of human being, too….treachery…I can’t deal with this.

Dr. N: (Kanno is sweating profusely and I quiet him now a bit before continuing) Tell me about your mental world. Does it have a name?

S: (pause) It’s a sound which I can’t re-create with my voice. (begins reminiscing) We float in a sea of gentle mental currents…soft…playful…so unlike Earth.

Dr. N: Then why come here?

S: (with a deep sigh) I am studying to be an Explorer-teacher. Most of my associates are satisfied to confine their efforts to one dimension. I finally told Phinus I wanted broader experience with a hard world in a completely different zone of existence. She told me she had a senior colleague who recommended another dimension with a strenuous physical world that had a reputation for producing vigorous, insightful souls (with a gallows laugh) – once you survive the lessons. This was Earth.

Dr. N: Did you get the impression there were other choices open to you?

S: (shrugs) Guides don’t give you many choices in such situations. Phinus said that when I completed my work on Earth I would be strengthened in ways my friends who refused such assignments would not be. She said Earth would also be quite interesting and I accepted that.

Dr. N: Did any of your friends come with you into our dimension?

S: No, I was the only one who elected to go and I almost refused to return again in this life. My associates think I am very brave. They know if I make it, I’m going to be an effective traveler.

Dr. N: Let’s talk about travel, Kanno. As an interdimensional traveler, you probably know if there is a finite number of dimensions around our physical universe.

S: (flatly) I do not know.

Dr. N: (cautiously) Well, is your home dimension next to ours?

S: No, I must pass through three other dimensions to get here.

Dr. N: Kanno, it would be helpful if you would try to describe what you see as you pass through these dimensions you are familiar with in your travels.

S: The first dimension is a sphere full of colors and violent explosions of light, sound and energy…I think it is still forming. The next is black and empty – we call it the unused sphere. Then there is a beautiful dimension which has both physical and mental worlds composed of gentle emotions, tender elements and keen thought. This dimension is superior to my original dimension and your universe as well.

Dr. N: It’s now your universe too, Kanno. Tell me, does the trip through the total of four dimensions take long?

S: No, quickly – like air particles passing through a filter.

Dr. N: Can you give me a sense of the structural design between these dimensions in relation to the spirit world? You described the dimensions as spheres. Why don’t we start with that.

S: (long pause) I can’t tell you much. Everything is…in a circle around the center of the spirit world. Each of these universes appears to me to be an interlocking sphere with the next, as in a chain.

Dr. N: (after failing to gain more information) How are you getting on in our universe now, Kanno?

S: (rubbing his hand on his forehead) Better. I am learning how to discharge my energy in a steady, positive stream without depleting my reserve. It helps me to be away from people for long periods. I expect to really improve after a few more lives, but I am looking forward to completing my time here on Earth.


The Animal Caretaker/Trackers
Skilled at finding and reconstructing the essence of animals

(when Michael Newton once asked a subject who knew about these things if he could conjure up his old basset hound, Socrates, in between lives…)

You could do this if you were advanced enough in the creation of energy. But even if you had this ability, your dog would not be quite as real as a professional could do for you. An Animal Caretaker Soul has the skill to track and find the spark of soul energy which did not die with Socrates and reconstruct your dog exactly as you knew him on Earth. Your pet will know you and be able to play with you whenever you wish and then he will go.


S: I have a dog and a cat as well as a horse. These are my pets from the last life. I must call for them as they don’t normally live in our spaces here. I can’t go to their place. An Animal Caretaker brings them to me. We call them trackers.

Dr. N: Do animals have souls?

S: Yes, of course they do, but in many varieties.

Dr. N: What is the difference between animal and human souls?

S: The souls of all living things have different…properties. Animal souls have smaller particles of energy…less volume and are not as complex and multifaceted as the human soul. The main difference, other than size and capacity, is that animal souls are not ego-driven. They are not overwhelmed by identity issues as we are. They also accept and blend with their environment rather than fighting to control it like human beings. (stops and then adds) We can learn from them.

Musical Director
The composition and transmission of harmonic resonance


Dr. N: Could you describe what you do?

S: (quietly, without boastfulness) I am a Musical Director of souls. A singing conductor – it is my passion – my skill – my pleasure to give to others.

Dr. N: Are you better at this than other souls because of your musical talent in your past life as an opera singer?

S: Oh, I suppose that one follows the other, but not everyone is as focused on music as I am. Some souls in musical groups may not be paying attention to the entire score. (smiles) Because of the musical range possessed by souls, they need a director to keep all these virtuosos on track. After all, this is recreation for them. They want to have fun as well as produce beautiful music.

Dr. N: So, you enjoy working with choirs rather than an orchestra?

S: Yes, but we mix it up to make the singing come together. When spirits apply themselves to instruments and voice sounds, it’s wonderful. It’s not stray notes. The harmonic meshing of musical energy reverberates throughout the spirit world with indescribable sounds. It takes you to new mental levels…moving your energy…communicating in unison with large numbers of other souls. Their range is staggering….vibrations pouring out in many directions…everyone hitting incredibly high and low notes without warning while I am struggling with their cues…and yet it’s all pure rapture.

Masters of Design
Structural Designers & Artistic Designers
Creators of large and small scale structures

I will begin by reviewing the activities of the structural souls who are in training to use energy for the designing of planetary geology. I think of them as architect-builders of topography who work with the component parts making up planetary surface features. This would include mountains, bodies of water, atmosphere and climate. Although structural specialists are associated with souls dedicated to landscaping with plants, trees and living creatures, that work is considered to be a separate classification of design. Structurally oriented souls are likely to begin their craft by constructing, in the spirit world, objects they knew in life.


Dr. N: What was the nature of your structural work then?

S: Oh, you know, the use of energy in structural composition. I like to sculpt matter into utilitarian designs.

Dr.N: Did Hyanth come with you to your new study group?

S: No, Hyanth did not take to this concentrated structural work all that much…and so she went to another group that was being formed.

Dr. N: What did Hyanth object to about your new group?

S: Let me put it this way. I enjoy carving and shaping energy, experimenting with the relationships between planes and geometrical solids as building blocks of matter

Dr. N: And Hyanth?

S: (with pride) Hyanth is attracted to designing the beautiful aspects of environmental settings suitable for life. She is wonderful with scenery. While I might construct a fitting series of interconnecting mountains she would be more interested in the plants and trees growing on the mountain.

Dr. N: Let me understand something. Do you just go to a physical world and build a mountain, with someone like Hyanth concentrating on life forms such as trees?

S: No, we work with physical worlds which are forming and set in motion the geologic forces which will build the mountain. My structural projects don’t have to have life. Also, Hyanth doesn’t create a forest of adult trees on worlds suitable for life. Her people would design the cells which might eventually grow into the trees they want.

Masters Biologists of Design
Creators of Life Forms

My next case is another illustration of those souls who work with living organisms. These designer souls are the biologists and botanists of the spirit world and they say that extraterrestrial life exists on billions of planets. I have an extensive file one souls who have incarnated on other worlds and souls who have travelled to a variety of strange worlds for both study and recreation between their lives on Earth.


Dr. N: Kala, I would like to further explore what you have told me about your assignment to Jaspear. I think this would help me understand your speciality. Why don’t you begin with your training class and how the project on Jaspear was presented.

S: The six of us have been assigned to work with some seniors (Design Masters) to deal with this world where runaway vegetation has threatened the food supply of the small land animals.

Dr. N: So, basically the problem on Jaspear involves the ecosystem?

S: Yes, the thick vines…a voracious vinelike bush. It grows so fast it kills those plants needed for the food supply. There is little space left for the land creatures of Jaspear to graze.

Dr. N: And they can’t eat the vines?

S: No, and that’s why we went to Jaspear on this assignment.

Dr. N: (reacting too quickly) Oh, to rid the planet of these vines?

S: No, they are indigenous to the planet and its soil.

Dr. N: Well, then, what is the assignment?

S: To create an animal which will eat the vines – to control the spreading of this bush which chokes off so much other vegetation.

Dr. N: What animal?

S: (laughing) It is the Rinucula.

Dr. N: How are you going to do that with an animal that is not indigenous to Jaspear?

S: By creating a mutation from an existing small four-footed animal and accelerating its growth.

Dr. N: Kala, you can change the DNA genetic codes of one animal to create another?

S: I could not do this by myself. We have the combined energy of my training class, plus the skillful manipulation of the two seniors who have accompanied us on this field trip.

Dr. N: You use your energy to alter the molecular chemistry of an organism in order to circumvent natural selection?

S: Yes, to radiate the cells of a group of the small animals. We mutate the existing species and make it much larger so it will survive. Since we don’t have the time to wait for natural selection, we will also accelerate growth of the four-legged animal.

Dr. N: Do you accelerate the growth of the mutation so that the Rinucula appears right away, or do you accelerate the size of the creature itself?

S: Both – we want the Rinucula to be big and we want this evolutionary change to take place in one generation.

Dr. N: How many Earth years will this take?

S: Oh…fifty years or so…to us it seems like a day.

Dr. N: What did you do to the small animal who will become a Rinucula?

S. We keep the legs and hairy torso – but it all will be larger.

Dr. N: Tell me about the finished product. What does a Rinucula look like?

S: (laughing) A…large curving nose down around the mouth…big lips…huge jaws…massive forehead…walks on four legs with hooves. About the size of a horse.

Dr. N: You said you kept the hair of the original animal?

S: Yes, it’s all over the Rinucula – long reddish-brown hair.

Dr. N: What about the brain of this animal – is it greater or less than a horse?

S: The Rinucula is smarter than a horse.

Dr. N: He sounds like something out of a Dr. Seuss children’s book.

S: (grins) That’s why it’s so much fun to think about him.

Dr. N: Has the Rinucula made a difference on Jaspear?

S: Yes, because he is many times the size of the original animal, and has other alterations – such as his huge jaw and body strength – he really is eating up the vines. The Rinucula is a docile creature with no natural predators and a voracious eater, like the original animal. That’s what the senior’s wanted.

Dr. N: Do you know how this experiment ended?

S: Jaspear is now a more balanced world of plant eaters. We wanted the other animals to thrive as well. The vines are now under control.

Dr. N: Do you plan eventually to have highly intelligent life on Jaspear – is that what this is all about?

S: (vaguely) Perhaps the seniors do….I have no way of knowing.

The co-ordinators in the “Ring of Destiny”, engaged with past, present and future timelines of people and events. They give the impression of actually directing the presentations in our theatre-in-the-round.

The Screening Room of Future Lives

The place of future life selection is seen as a sphere containing highly concentrated force fields of glowing energy screens. The place of life selection has been characterized as the Ring of Destiny, where we first behold our next body. Most subjects see the Ring as a circular, domed theater with floor-to-ceiling panoramic screens which surround them completely while they are situated in a shadowed viewing area. The Ring displays futuristic scenes of events and people the soul will encounter in the life to come.

The whole spiritual structure of the screening room is designed to give the viewer an ability either to observe or participate in the action, just as in the libraries. It does seem to me that more people elect to enter the screens of the Ring during life selection than with the screens in the other learning centers. They want to actually experience snippets of future events in certain bodies before making any final decisions. The preference to enter a scene or just observe is always left up to the individual soul. As with the smaller consoles, the Ring also has what appears to be control panels or lever bars to monitor the action. People call this procedure scanning the timelines, and the more advanced tell me they can control the array of events in front of them with their minds. The sequence of events can, to some extent, be regulated in stop action for parts of a future life the soul may wish to consider more carefully.

(from a Timemaster-in-training)

Dr. N: Obidom, can you tell me what you do between lives that represents your greatest challenge as a soul?

S: I study time on the planet Earth.

Dr. N: To what end?

S: I wish to be a master of this art…traveling the timelines…understanding the sequences with people living in a physical world. To help the planners assist souls in their life selections.

S: To work with time, you must learn spatial manipulation. You start with models and then go to the real thing.

Dr. N: What sort of models?

S: (dreamily) Oh…a huge vaporized pool…of swirling liquid energy…thinning in those gaps where scenes are simulated for us in mini-bites…the gaps open…you see neon tubes of fluctuating light…ready for entry. (stops) It’s really hard to explain.

Dr. N: That’s all right, Obidom. I would like to discuss where you are now working, who teaches you, and something about the practical art of becoming a Timemaster.

S: (quietly) Time training is conducted at a temple (grins) We call it the Temple of Time – where teachers instruct us in the application of energy sequences for events.

Dr. N: What are the sequences?

S: Timelines exist as energy sequences of events which move.

Dr. N: Tell me how you manipulate energy in the timelines.

S: Time is manipulated by compressing and stretching energy particles within a unified field and to regulate its flow…like playing with rubber bands.

Dr. N: Can you change events in the past, present and future? Is that what you mean by manipulation?

S: (long pause) No, I can only monitor the energy sequences. We operate as…highwaymen who enter and exit the sequences – which we consider roads – by speeding up and slowing down. Condensing our energy speeds us up and expansion slows us down. It’s the same thing with events and people who appear on the sequences as points on the roads. We don’t create anything. We intersect as observers.


Journey to Spirit (Part 9) – Divine Guidance – Abadiania, Brazil


It was only a few days until I would be leaving Abadiania, and this made me feel very sad. I felt like I had found so much love and peace within myself during the four weeks away from home. This place has a strong power that some will be scared of or others will embrace. What I mean by this is that it would open up wounds within you that may be hard to acknowledge, and you will be flooded with emotion. One thing is certain, you will leave Abadiania as a different person.

It was about my second last day in Abadiania, and on this particular night I didn’t sleep well, and woke at around 3am (seemed to be a common time for me here). I had asked Spirit for a sign that night before bed, and even asking that I felt shivers all over. So I was up at this early hour looking out my window to the clear black sky, then whoaaaaa, I see a big orb shaped ball of light fly past my window in the sky, no sound or anything (it was not a shooting star, it was closer and big). Instinctively I sat bolt upright covered with goosebumps!  I thought well I asked for a sign and got it!! so I thought….

In the same morning,  I went to Current, and after about 2 hours of sitting in meditation, I needed to go to the bathroom and stretch my legs. So I got up walked out, quickly put my shoes on and went to bathroom block. When I went to wash my hands, I saw something strange on my left hand. It was a manifestation of an oval and cross literally stamped deeply into my hand, the oval was pressed down into my skin and the cross was actually raised up. I only got to show the current guide the manifestation before I sat down again to meditate, and we couldn’t speak so we gave each other an acknowledging smile and she pointed up. Please note that my hands were held palms facing up the entire time I was meditating. Naturally my mind tried to debunk this, and I even retraced my steps and where I put my hands (haha) but there was nothing to explain it!! I took this as a sign to have faith. Even though I am not religious, the Entities who reside and help those who come here led religious lives in their time on Earth. This was the most prominent sign that could be given.

I have drawn it on to my hand in this photo to show you what manifested:

Please see my other blog pieces:

Part 1 – Journey to Spirit

Part 2 – Journey to Spirit

Part 3 – Journey to Spirit

Part 4 – Journey to Spirit

Part 5 – Journey to Spirit

Part 6 – Journey to Spirit

Part 7 – Journey to Spirit

Part 8 – Journey to Spirit

An Orb-tal Misty Morning in Abadiania

It’s a Brazilian Life

Journey to Spirit (Part 8) – Revealing Dreams -Abadiania, Brazil


I had many dreams whilst I was in Abadiania, which had significance to my healing process and being. So I thought I would share some of the interesting  and entertaining ones I had during my time here.

  • One night I had the worst sleep ever, as I felt I’d been travelling out of my body all night. I woke with fresh memories of a couple of dream fragments. Firstly, a girl was making me hurt myself, but the message singing loud and clear during my dream was “Stop hurting yourself”. Then following on from this I found myself in a shopping mall, and had lost my wallet (note: this is interpreted as “security”) at the pharmacy (interpreted as “health”) and I had to go through obstacles to find it. I encountered a large wall and had to climb it, and then it started swinging, but I found a rope and stabilising it, I was able to make it over. Then another section, a man tried to grab me and abuse me sexually, I cried as I watched people (Police) go straight past me without helping me…but I fought through. Finally after the obstacle course I found the Pharmacy, only to realise that I had my wallet all the time. I relaxed and went where I was led out. I saw a gigantic big dirt hill which I ran up, even though it seemed steep and hard. I made it to the top where I was fortunate to see “The Knight” being filmed, there were horses and actors in armour . After this I was led to Area 51 military base, where I saw UFO’s and was taking photos without being caught.
  • I dreamed of moving into a new house across the street, and going through all my items and doing a clean out. This happened after an afternoon of a powerful spiritual clearing operation from the Entities. Ann our Guide stated that John of God was looking the most powerful she had seen to date. After this session my legs felt really bad, the evening they were on fire,burning. But when I woke my energy was amazing. Like others who had operations, I could feel spirit working on my body, tracing outside my mouth, right side of head, stomach, and meridians of the body.
  • In another dream I was holding current (sending love and light energy) for all of Brazil…hehe and in aiding to achieve this I was giving special dark Brazilian chocolate.


Please see my other blog pieces:

Part 1 – Journey to Spirit

Part 2 – Journey to Spirit

Part 3 – Journey to Spirit

Part 4 – Journey to Spirit

Part 5 – Journey to Spirit

Part 6 – Journey to Spirit

An Orb-tal Misty Morning in Abadiania

It’s a Brazilian Life

Journey to Spirit (Part 7) – Abadiania, Brazil


It’s taken me some time to write my experiences of Brazil…here I continue with my journal of events in part 7 , which starts to get into the heart of my emotions.


After an early morning breakfast, I headed to the Casa to put a prayer in the triangle and buy some blessed water. The rest of the day is leisurely, catching up with the girls at Frutti’s, relaxing at the Pousada where we would later have a meditation as a group for the first time and finish off with watching the sunset on the top of the majestic hill.

Meditation Session

Our Pousada has a lovely little meditation room, with lots of cushions, idols, incense and peace. At 4pm we all meet outside the room, take off our shoes, and squeeze ourselves into the small space making a circle, and sit side by side each other. Our guide, Ann, hands us two pieces of paper, and leads us through a protective meditation and heart chakra focus.

Quick detour…

Heart Chakra -the fourth Chakra is located in the centre of the chest, over the heart.  This Chakra governs our ability to enact our vocation and live our life lovingly. The colour associated with this Chakra is vivid green. The heart chakra is our ‘centre’ and is about compassion, service and vocation and also about acting lovingly. It’s a spiritual chakra, the first three are considered physical.  It’s about seeing beyond ourselves and being of service to others – to be of use, not to use or not be used by others. Heavy heartedness, grief, pain and anger can live here. Let me tell you from experience with myself and others, this is one of the first chakras to work  on and open up, and it can be very painful! a lot of emotion can come out. I associate it also with forgiveness. The heart processes our emotions for us. We grieve and mourn and equally celebrate and laugh from the heart. We say, “It feels good to get that off of my chest.” Get it?

The meditation focused on FORGIVENESS….and forgiveness comes from the heart chakra. I want to share this link that talks more about forgiveness and the heart.

We were each asked to think about our Mother and our Father, as well as our self, then write what we felt on the pieces of paper at the end of this journey. As I reflected, I could feel my emotions rising and not only that but with my eyes closed I could feel the grief from others within our circle. When we opened our eyes, my tears were evident, I was extremely overcome with emotion, it took me by surprise. The sadness I felt was quite physical on my heart, and it needed to burst and release all the ‘stuff’ that had accumulated. One by one, we went around the circle and shared what we were feeling, but I was so choked up and all I wanted to do was cry and cry, and there was very little I could say in such grief. I felt a deep sadness when I explored forgiveness with one of my parents. People we love generally do not deliberately go out to intentionally hurt us, sometimes they act in a way because it’s all they know, they are operating from Ego, or they are afraid. The sadness I felt was having that exact realisation. It related to them not being able to express love verbally to me- something some find easy and others find not so easy. Some people do not know how to verbalise it to another, they are afraid because they then feel vulnerable, they were never shown or told they were loved, and perhaps those that were supposed to love them, abused them. I explored how I could bridge this when the time was right in order to provide healing to them, and to me.

After the meditation, and after some more tears, and comforting hugs, we took a taxi to the top of the hill, just past the Casa. We did a little releasing ceremony, but putting our notes in a pile and burning them – letting every go. To forgive is be be free and it is something we need to continuously practice in our life. As we walked closer to the top of the hill, a woman was singing a line about ‘forgiveness’, it was certainly added confirmation. We sat on the hill as a friend of ours sang Amazing Grace, as the beautiful sun kissed the earth good night.

A couple of my soul pod members had spiritual experiences here, the  presence of a passed one and message of forgiveness, and symbol seen in the sky. This place I should add is active with UFO’s. In another  post I will share what I saw ;)!!

Let end this post with a quote that I wrote in Abadiania, the place where you can truly learn about being in the now:


Beautiful heart like sunset I took on the hill in Abadiania 🙂

such peace watching the sun set at Abadiania


It was like a ritual in Abadiania, people would come and gather each night to bid the sun good night, sing, reflect, send out love, feel peace and just Be!

This beautiful hymn above was sung by Irina Radke at sunset in Abadiania, Brasil. Irina is a singing teacher and group leader at the Casa de Dom Inacio. The Casa is where Medium Joao (aka “John of God”) offers healing to anyone that comes there.

Please see my other blog pieces:

Part 1 – Journey to Spirit

Part 2 – Journey to Spirit

Part 3 – Journey to Spirit

Part 4 – Journey to Spirit

Part 5 – Journey to Spirit

Part 6 – Journey to Spirit

An Orb-tal Misty Morning in Abadiania

It’s a Brazilian Life

Embracing Clairsentience


So my blog is  called Confessions of a Clairsentient, and so it is only apt that I try to find words to describe this energetic operating system one is born with or develops. I still find it difficult to put into words what I feel sometimes, but try to do my best here and present information that resonates from my personal experiences. But each person is different.

Clairsentience (clear-feeling) is one of the most common and down to earth intuitive gifts that you can develop, yet complex as the same time. It is a sixth sense, so to speak, and means the ability to “feel”, or “know”, and interpret the feelings or energy around you to divine emotions and other energy vibes from people, places, spirits, animals or anything really that contains energy. Empathy and Clairsentience could also be grouped together in the spectrum of intuitive gifts, which relate to feeling or sensing the emotions and energies of the world around them.

Clairsentience is a broadened form of Empathy, which encompasses a wider field of sensitivities and has quite a lot in common with intuition, because it a strong awareness that you feel inside yourself about the subject you are concentrating on or connect with. I should add, that you don’t always need physical contact to connect with energy. It can also be the most challenging, because sometimes you will feel things, yet it is difficult to put into words what you pick up and why.

To feel, as in Clairsentience, requires recognition, acceptance, and it takes commitment to learn the skills to manage the range of energy experiences you perceive.

Depending on your sensitivity or gifts, the following are some traits of being Clairsentient;

  • A “feeling” of being different will probably have been with you from early childhood – you may also have been able to see and hear in a way others could not or viewed the world around you differently.
  • You can be emotionally attached to someone, even at a distance you can ‘feel’ them (dreams, random thoughts, flashes of insight etc).  This can happen even if you are no longer associated with them. Even if you don’t want to be a part of it, you will still feel connected, and so you may need to take steps to disconnect the spiritual/etheric cord.
  • If you were misunderstood as a child you are likely to have been told that you “shouldn’t” feel that way or that you are “imagining” things.
  • You may have been a target/blamed or made to feel responsible for other people’s problems, including authority figures, primary carers, teachers or siblings. In adolescence this could progress to friends, work colleagues or partners. Perhaps you were used or are used, as a soft target practice!
  • A continuing pattern of “others” not understanding and or saying there must be something wrong with you because they do not “feel” that way. That you are just being “too sensitive”.
  • Able to perceive energy fields (through physical sensations), including a person’s aura and vibrations (such as voice and how words are strung together). Ever heard someone talk and their words just sing or lull you?!
  • Not knowing how you know but “knowing” anyway, things others do not seem to know or understand.
  • Feeling guilty and responsible for other people’s happiness.
  • Choosing to stay in situations for the sake of “others” even at your own detriment. Usually it will be for emotional rather than financial reasons.
  • Always giving others the benefit of the doubt whilst failing to see your own “goodness”.
  • Having an inner knowing that you are the “stronger” person even though you are accused of being over sensitive, emotional, irrational and imagining things that do not exist.
  • You can sense the presence of spirits, but you don’t understand what you’re feeling, except you know you feel a strange energy.
  • You are highly sensitive to your surroundings and they can affect your emotions. Large crowds and events can make you physically feel ill (perhaps you will feel nauseous, get headaches etc).
  • If earlier difficulties existed you may have a deep fear of confrontational situations. You will have probably unconsciously developed some level of coping strategies to avoid these but having to face a situation can cause great anxiety. This will be at a level of feeling very vulnerable and helpless, whilst manifesting physical symptoms of heart palpitations, nausea, frozen fear; this will be followed by a period of time trying to calm yourself while pent-up energy rushes through your body. This may seem to others an inappropriate or exaggerated response to what appears a fairly ordinary exchange or minor problem.
  • You go to other people’s homes or even meeting somewhere in a workplace and your emotions may change.  You may even attribute it to not liking the people, but have no definitive reason why.
  • You may serve as a “host” to another person(s); whilst supplying their “being” with energy will make you feel and appear the weaker person, the other person(s) strength can depend on “you” as an energy source. You may not recognise this yourself, however erratic and depleted energy is a symptom.
  • You think of someone who is not around you, and you inexplicably know how they are feeling and sometimes know if something good or bad is going to happen or has happened, but you don’t know why.
  • You have an ability to heal others. You can talk to them in person or even over the phone and they feel better, but you could feel worse.
  • Sometimes you can feel others physical pain and take on that pain.

Clairsentience usually falls into one of three categories: Gut feelings, Empathy and Physical sensations (of which I get all of).

Gut Feelings
A strong emotional response that can feel physical (feeling of dread or excitment) and it good to sense if you like or trust someone.
A sinking or sick feeling in my gut means that something is not going to go well or is to be avoided. A light fluttery (yes butterflies sometimes), excited feeling means that I am on the right track. Gut feelings allow you to sense very quickly whether or not you like and trust someone. Over time you will learn what it means for you.

One of my biggest part of my gift. Some of us find that we have been able to do this from a young age. Sometimes a quick glance is enough or their physical prescence in order to pick up on the feelings of other people and know what it is like to be another person. Empathy is a hard gift to manage initially – whilst you can put yourself in other peoples’ shoes you can succumb to being a sponge – absorbing and feeling emotions which aren’t your own. Do you ever experience overwhelming negative feelings which seem to have no cause? Then you could be feeling someone else’s feelings.

Here are some traits of Empaths:

  • Your emotions get out of control (anxious, panicky, frustrated) in crowds, even though you may want to be there or at an event, you end up being drained.
  • People seek you out, they like being around you and even if they have just met you, they will tell you about their problems and issues (you will do all the listening and giving of attention
  • You have a need to make people feel better and do your best to, you also just know what people need to hear to feel better about themselves or situation
  • You have difficulty expressing your own emotions and prefer to focus on someone else (SO TRUE!!)
  • You explain away others bad treatment of you, thinking they needed you on some level, and have to accept it
  • You need to help and heal others, and you will sacrifice yourself to do so
  • Nature and animals make you happy and give you peace and comfort – you covet it.

Physical Sensations
Clairsentience also speaks to you through sensations in your body – like tickling or pressure or pain. I have found that certain images, words or even sound can have an effect on the body. Those who are more sensitive may not be able to view some visual images on television for example, because they feel physical pain (for example I get a sharp painful stabbing sensation, or shock through my entire body, it’s not pleasant! and cannot imagine good for the body).

Occassionally, whenever I am tuning into spirit or connecting with someone else when tuned in on a spiritual or active level, I get a strong warm tingling  or prickling sensation on one side (usually right) of my head.

Exercises to develop your Clairsentience

One on One Practice
Ask a friend to show you a picture of somebody they know well (but make sure you don’t know the person in the picture).  Look into the person’s eyes and tune into their energy – how do they feel at the moment of the photo being taken? If this is the first time you have consciously used your clairsentience, you may just pick up on a basic negative or positive vibe.
Ask yourself what this individual is like as a person. Ask yourself whether you trust the person. Is there anything else the person’s eyes are revealing?
Check with your friend – how accurate were you?

Practice in a Busy Place
The easiest place to do this is somewhere public. A coffee shop is a great place to start. Take a seat somewhere that you are less likely to be disturbed but still have full view of the comings and goings. Start by choosing a staff member. Focusing on them, just open up and imagine what you think they are feeling. Are they enjoying their day, or are they feeling frazzled and tired. Do you imagine that this is their only job, do they have children, are they studying at University, do they have a marriage or relationship, are they social or private people, shy or outgoing, and so on. Just explore who they are. Make sure you are using your imagination and that you aren’t pressuring yourself or second guessing what you come up with. Practice this regularly, and you will see a definite improvement in your ability to tap in to people. Make sure that each time you do this exercise, you complete the session with these cleansing practices and then ground.

The traits and tools I apply to nurture my Clairsentience

  • embrace imagination and visualisation
  • embrace and explore your senses
  • be curious! notice things
  • open your heart
  • trust flashes of insight or images (even if you don’t understand) -write them down
  • get plenty of rest and time alone to recharge
  • get sunshine and space in nature to reground
  • practice cleansing your energy




Butterfly Dreams – The Monarch


I’ve always loved the Monarch Butterfly, I have seen them in migration in the wild, released them when I got married for the first time and mused about them in my shamanistic mind because I love symbolism in life, it is a way I intuitively operate. When I write here on my journal I am mostly guided in my spiritual pieces, and this one was gently nudging me since 4.15 this morning.

In the early hours of this morning they actually woke me up, they were tickling and buzzing all over my legs, sitting on the side of my head and I could see one of it’s full cute faces looking at me through the magnifying lens of my camera. Yes, it was only a dream but they left me with a peacefulness and joy as they floated around a beautiful light and minty greenhouse.

Since I was young I have dabbled enough in shamanism to know that, whenever any animal shows up with strong intent or in a unique way, it’s good to pay attention to the message it brings. To the Native Americans the butterfly is a symbol of joy. They remind us that life is a dance, not to take things quite so seriously. They also remind us to get up and move. Dance brings the sweetness of life. So, what do butterflies symbolize and what do we know about them?

Facts regarding the Monarch Butterfly:

  • Monarch butterflies are known as the wanderer butterflies in Australia and have been here since the early 1800s. Notable for its bright orange, black and white colouration, and whilst safe to humans they are toxic.
  • The Monarch is one of the longest living butterflies and will live for up to a couple of months after being released.
  • They are known for their transatlantic migrations elsewhere in the world, but in Australia they only make short trips if necessary, due to the already warm temperatures throughout most of the continent.
  • Monarch butterflies cannot fly if their body temperature is less than is below 55° F (13° C). They will sit in the sun or “shiver” their wings to warm up. (Sounds a bit like me!)

Butterfly: a symbol metamorphosis and transformation

Did you know that according to scientific research, the butterfly is the only living being capable of changing entirely its genetic structure during the process of transformation: the caterpillar’s DNA is totally different from the butterfly’s! Those who have a butterfly as their totem animal may have a difficult childhood.  Life lessons are revealed to the consciousness while in the womb of the mother – the cocoon stage –  and are completed when the caterpillar emerges into the butterfly and takes flight.  Butterflies are symbols of freedom and creativity. They hold the gift of transformation, shape-shifting and soul evolution, and equally require courage to carry out the changes required in order to grow.

When butterfly shows up, make note of the most important issues confronting you at the moment. What state of change are you at in regard to them? You may need to find clarity in mental or emotional processes or organise projects, or figure out your next step in your internal growth. Maybe you are about to undergo a significant transformation. Examine which stage calls your attention first: the egg is the beginning, the birth of an idea; the larva is the decision to manifest something in the physical world; the cocoon has to do with “going inside”;  the breaking of the cocoon is the creation and beauty shared with the world. They hold the gift of soul evolution…

Visit this link for a comprehensive description of the Monarch Butterfly as at Totem animal from a fellow West Australian’s website – It’s truly insightful!!

In my dream, I saw the face of the Monarch in close up detail. Butterflies have a pair of large compound oval eyes made up of thousands of individual lenses.  They can see a single image clearly and are able to perceive ultraviolet wavelengths of light.  This suggests clairvoyant abilities for those that hold this totem.

Their antennas have small knobs on each end which is said to play a role in orientation;  so when one antennae is missing the butterfly will fly in circles unable to find its way.  Those with this medicine need to stay consciously connected to spirit at all times in order to arrive at their desired destination. They appeared on my legs in my dream, my legs are weak from illness, and so I find it significant that this is where they alighted. In my dream I was also healthy.

It has also appeared  to the vibration of the number 9, a prominent number in my numerology, having been born on the 27=9 and 9th month. Plus today’s date 26/05/2012 = 2+6+5+2+0+1+2=18 =9. In numerology 9 represents creation and the life as a rhythm and development, it is the end of the cycle before it recommences.

Now to the colour of the butterfly. Orange relates to the 2nd Chakra (Sacral), one which I already know is not balanced in myself. The sacral’s main chakra meanings relate to the feeling of emotions (self confidence, one’s power), sensuality, security, commitment and honour in relationships and clairsentience or clear feeling. It’s energy is needed to create life and to achieve a creative expression that is essentially physical; the spiritual energy is to learn to interact consciously with others, to form unions with people who support our development, and release those that limit growth.

And, the fact that I was able to analyse, comprehend and write this so early in the morning denotes the significance even more!

Journey to Spirit (Part 6) – Abadiania, Brazil


The remainder of our Aussies (from Western Australia , New South Wales and Victoria) have arrived at Abadiania, as they too endured the delays caused by the Chilean volcano. They are beautiful souls and it’s an immediate connection.  We spent the morning having breakfast with one another and then Sherril and I went to the Casa to peel a tub of pumpkins for the blessed soup which would be enjoyed over the next three days.

After buying some blessed water, we get a taxi as a group to Casa de Sopa, a project requested by Dr Augusto. It was built with clear instructions – it was not to be a place to feed the poor, but a place where anyone who is hungry can get nourishment. In addition to providing food, it is also involved in helping local children and their families. We took along donations of nappies, and had a tour of the stores (it stocked clothing, blankets, toys and school items).  Afterwards, we sat down at the long tables to enjoy soup, bread, coffee and biscuits with the locals. The light, open aired room was full of woman, children and men of all statuses.

Once again, it is a beautiful cloudless and sunny day in Abadiania. I adore this weather, but because of the spiritual interventions I have endured, I must shield myself with an umbrella or hat as my energy needs to be contained. Whilst the remainder of my soul pod make their way to the sacred waterfall, I prepare myself for another week at Casa and get my ‘whites’ organised. Friday is also Medium Joao’s birthday so there will be a big party near the Casa – they have built a wooden tower which will be used for fireworks, and tents, stage and various musicians will be arranged.

Casa Day (Morning)

It’s an early start today, as it is very busy. This small area is filled with bus loads of Brazilians who have travelled 30-40 hours to visit the Casa, and partake in the birthday celebrations.

Sherril and I enjoyed a crystal bed session ( I was in room 2) and afterwards felt incredibly fuzzy and scattered like my whole energy body is vibrating. We were meant to go into current but the main hall is so jam packed. Sherril ends up holding me (as I have no balance) until we find a bit of the stage to sit on. I was overwhelmed energetically and by the room of emotion and Sherril was in tears – our energy was wide open after the crystal session.

My guide Ann finds me and takes me into the infirmary or recovery room at the Casa – it is generally used for people who have had visible intervention (surgery) or are overwhelmed by energy and need to recover. It feels incredibly peaceful in here and I am placed into a bed with my eyes shut. It smells like fresh roses in here, and has feminine energy. I am told it is Mary’s room. It felt like I was there for about 15 minutes before I was given some blessed water and then taken by Ann to see the Entity again. He told me I needed another operation (this would occur in the afternoon). At lunch we realised that all but two of us were going to have interventions.

Casa Day (Afternoon)

We headed back in the early afternoon to get a seat ready to be called for operations. As I sat in the main hall waiting, I went into a trance – I could see everything around me but I was in a different brainwave and I could feel hot and cold pins and needles all over my body! The Casa filled up quickly and when the operation line was called, Ann helped me up. A man in a wheelchair refused to move and I had to climb over him to get out it was so busy. I went from zen to an eruption of tears instantly. As I entered the surgery room, I felt a cool air and anaesthetic smell. I received my script by entity and placed it on my lap. I sensed how crowed the room was, and a baby was crying. During the invisible surgery I felt what appeared to be a knife down my lower back. Ann helped me out and I sat on a  bench outside as she went off to obtain my capsules. Sitting there alone, I burst into tears (without conscious emotion) and continued to weep. A lovely Brazilian woman put her hand to my head and kissed my forehead.

It was going to be another 24 hours in bed for me…where I felt burning feet and legs – apparently a good sign. I slept well on and off for the entire time with no contact or stimulation of any kind.

When we were all recovered from operations we met up at Frutti’s for our favourite juices and got to know each other better ( I’m still hanging for an Acai pudding at Frutti’s, which comes with banana, molasses and mango cream). Later we meandered for a nightcap further down the road; a delicious Dandelion coffee at Grainne’s Cafe Central – famous for their chocolate gooey cookies. Whilst there, a group of 10 or so Judo students and their teacher stopped out front on the road and gave us a demonstration. They were seeking donations (spending money) for a tournament in Rio. Apparently Medium Joao was paying for all their airfares.

Friday Casa Experience

Today is to be my first experience in Current, but because it was Joao’s birthday, things were delayed in getting started and so my plans changed a little. A special military band had come to play for Joao, and he passed me with his volunteers, to hear the huge tubas and trumpets in his honour. One song played was the Bee Gees “How deep is your Love”. My legs were sore after waiting and standing that I decided to take a taxi back to the pousada and attempt Casa in the afternoon. I enjoyed the time writing in the dining room, skyping with a friend and enjoying the warmth of a Brazilian day. A lovely girl called Amy from the US, approached me when I was sitting at the table and told me  I was a beautiful person with a beautiful heart. Even though we’d never really spoken, this place is like that, you can talk from the heart with no ulterior motives – just Love.


Arriving in the afternoon, four of us joined the current for the 2pm session. Even though it is hard to sit in the wooden bench seats for so long, I did my best to give my energy to all the people passing through the door on their way to see the Entity. Often as people passed I could see flashes of darkness around some or vibrant light, all with my eyes shut of course. Grainne led our current session, motivating us with beautiful words among the music. There were times I felt like putting my hand up to leave and go to the bathroom, relieve my legs (as I was aching all over), but I didn’t want to disappoint myself or let the medium or others down. So I endured this meditation, and thought about Medium Joao, how for 54 years he has sacrificed himself as an unconscious medium to sit for hours on end to help others. I listened as hundreds of people come through the lines. Buses of people from all over the country , often poor, who have made an arduous trip here to see the Entity.

When we finally come out of current, it was 7pm at night and quite dark and the birthday festivities for Medium Joao had already started. Even though I had just spent 5 hours in meditation, I felt oddly energised despite the initial disorientation. I went back to the Pousada for dinner and change of clothes, then headed down to the party. It was so crowded and quite hard for me to stand without support. After some guidance from another, we took photos and captured the magic of spiritual orbs evidently celebrating Joao’s big day too. As the flash went off, I could see the glitter of energy reflect back.

This is just to show you an example of a photograph by a friend of mine,(no orbs showing) yet in my photos above there are Orbs 🙂

After watching the formalities, a couple of us decided to head to Frutti’s and repose a little. More and more people we knew joined our table and it was a lot of fun. I enjoyed a Acai double drink with acai, cashew nut, cane sugar, coconut and mineral water. After a big day, I was so tired, and literally crashed once my head hit the pillow. I slept so well.

Please see my other blog pieces:

Part 1 – Journey to Spirit

Part 2 – Journey to Spirit

Part 3 – Journey to Spirit

Part 4 – Journey to Spirit

Part 5 – Journey to Spirit

An Orb-tal Misty Morning in Abadiania

It’s a Brazilian Life

Journey to Spirit (Part 5) – Abadiania, Brazil


I woke up early, and took the quiet early morning road to the Casa with Sherril to have a Crystal bed session we had booked. Each crystal bed room is numbered, and each room is very different energetically. This time I tried room number 2  – and from this point on it became my favourite. I felt SO spaced out, in a good way, that I needed to reground before walking again. Sherril commented that I looked different. I have to say that in generally this place left me totally blissed out, and all my concerns and worries melted away.

After our beautiful auric wash we headed back to the Luz Divina Pousada.  At 11am Selito Jose Dos Santos, a self taught artist, was coming to do a soul painting for Sherril and I. We initially met Selito at Frutti’s, where he is often found, and he is well known by everyone here. He was immediately drawn to me, in particular my eyes, commenting on their beauty when introduced to me.

We meditated for a while until Selito arrived on his zippy motorbike, and walked through the gate in a confident manner – white shirt covered like his palette, full of colours, helmet, oil paints, tiles and a genuinely big smile. We sojourned to the tranquil garden under the shade of a Mango tree, and relaxed.

Selito is an interesting character. He understands English but speaks very little of it, and has the most beautiful childlike energy about him. He would become known to several of us as the gem of Brazil. He would also become my biggest fan and admirer during my time in Abadiania. He has a happy and funny disposition, and is quite often found singing randomly as he paints or if out and about.

Selito is no ordinary artist, he is a spiritual artist who does not use canvases or brushes to create his masterpieces  – which he charges 30 Reis. He uses simply oil paints, white tiles, a rag, his fingers and Spirit, and within 10-15 minutes produces something special and unique to you. To connect with you, he stares at your eyes briefly, as if looking to see something further beyond the physical. Then he goes into a state of creative focus, with liquid precision the paint colours are added, and the image, and symbols, begin to come alive on the tile as your own personal soul story materialises.

According to information I have found, Selito (a former house painter), many years ago fell 57 feet accidently. He survived without injury and was still conscious when medical support arrived. He had no head trauma, but soon after the idea of painting came to him. He just began to paint, and paint, but was not comfortable with brushes, and so soon began using his fingers.  From that point on he began creating meaningful and beautiful nature based paintings that connect to an individual’s soul. Without formal art training, he believes he is guided by spirit guides.

The following video is my second painting being done before I left Abadiania…

My first painting is simply stunning – azure blues, full of waterfalls, trees and two pink love birds sitting in a tree (we call this OOh LA LA and is a sign of love-  Selito confirms this in later meetings in not so many words), a winding path leading to light. Unfortunately Selito is not able to interpret these paintings to us, because if you have spirit surgery you are not able to have any alternative therapies, or intuitive readings for 40 days thereafter. Selito seems to take a fancy to me in this second meeting, and tries to persuade me to go off with him on his motorbike and visit a waterfall.

All our paintings - mine is the first left in top row

After my beautiful painting is completed, Sherril and I casually make our way to Ann’s stunning cottage for a Sunday Chicken Roast lunch. It is a festive affair, with new and old friends gathering to share conversations about the magic of Abadiania, and of faeries, angels, orbs and miracles. All this accompanied by a sumptuous feast of fresh market vegetables – pumpkin, potato, carrot, broccolini, followed by Tapioca dessert with cream, cheese board and chocolate/coconut pastry in the tropical Brazilian surrounds.

This place is so inspiring, filled with energy, and I feel incredibly blessed. After a full belly of lunch, and full heart, I return to my Pousada and lay in the hammock to reverie. Tomorrow, for 10 REIS, Sherril and I will get a manicure (my first) and Ann will give us an orientation on the Casa. There may be a trip to the majestic and blessed waterfall – however I don’t actually feel a kin to this for some reason, nor feel safe going there.

There is a library in the pousada, and I take the book ‘The Help’ from the shelves and begin to read…

Surgery & Comraderie – Journey to Spirit 2011 (Part 4)– Abadiânia, Brazil

Surgery & Comraderie – Journey to Spirit 2011 (Part 4)– Abadiânia, Brazil

It’s 2pm and it’s surgery time! I arrived at the Casa with my guide Ann, and fellow soul pod companion, Sherril, and waited to go into surgery. We entered the main hall, sat down and once again, I immediately burst into tears, as the energy was overwhelming. Sherril fetched me some blessed water to calm me down and it did. When the lines were called for surgery, Ann walks me through all the current and medium rooms and I observe people deep in meditation, eyes shut, and very relaxed. I enter the surgery or blessing room and immediately feel a zephyr of air and smell of psychic anaesthetic – this is evidence of the spirit doctor working in here. I felt very calm, and sat down with hands on my legs, palms facing up and eyes gently closed.

Me and Sherril at the Casa lookout

Whilst sitting there, prayers are recited in Portuguese, and then repeated in English. You are asked if you want a physical or spiritual operation. Physical is when an individual needs to feel or actually be touched (i.e. cut open etc by Joao) and spiritual or invisible is where spirits work through your body and energy, but still cutting and performing a surgery on you. It is said that your soul knows what you need and that if you are asked what kind of surgery you want your hand will either voluntarily raise up or not. As for me I chose a spiritual surgery, so in doing so, I placed my right hand over my heart, and allow spirit to work on my whole being.

I don’t know how long I was sitting there for, time stands still in this place and doesn’t seem to exist. With my prescription in hand and vibrationally charged for me, I await for the surgery to be over. Shakily I move outside after the surgery and get debriefed on the post surgery instructions:

You may feel anesthetised or light headed afterward. You will collect a prescription for a post-operation herb (Passiflora) which has no real benefit; it is the vibration of energy that Entity has placed into them that is of benefit.

Post operation instructions include the following:

  • Do not eat pork, chilli peppers, spicy food, or drink alcohol while taking the herbs.
  • You will be instructed to not engage in sex for 40 days (to conserve all your energy for healing).
  • You will be instructed to stay out of the sun for at least 7 days (to conserve your energy)
  1. You will write your name, home address, country and the pousada where you are staying on a piece of paper and leave it in the basket in the first office. This is so the Spirits can work on you while you are in Abadiania and for one year after you return home.  It is also so they can visit you to remove any stitches.
  2. You will then take a taxi to your Pousada and rest for 24 or more hours. Do not walk. Some people feel exhausted for a 2nd day. Even if you feel fine, remain in bed for 24 hours. Not 15 or 22, but at least 24 hours.
  3. Lay in bed, with your eyes closed. No sun, no lifting, no exercise, no long walks for 8 days, and take it easy for 40 days. So I spend the days walking around with an umbrella to shield myself, along with everyone else. Such a shame to have left the winter of home, to come to tropical weather, yet not able to enjoy it – that would come later though J
  4. We are also unable to leave a large radius of the area in which we are living, known to many as the bubble or vortex. You need to get permission to go outside of the main street.

Whilst waiting outside, Ann collects my prescription and then arranges a taxi back to Luz Divina Pousada. I now rest for 24 hours. Even though I was so tired from days of travelling I still felt very unrested or overtired. After surgery, my entire body ached all over, I felt totally wiped out and my entire legs were on fire, burning. Being in my room for 24 hours to rest, without contact or stimulation was welcomed by me.

After 24 hours I emerged at dinner time, and Ann had bought me one of Frutti’s fabulous Strawberry Shakes. I attempted to face the energy of people around me – it was very difficult – I was so shaky, my energy open and exposed. After some food, I began to feel my grounded again.

Following dinner there was a talk and photographic slideshow of Joao (and incorporation) by Karen Lefner, Joao’s only photographer. It was amazing to see and hear about his life. I enjoyed this, and then had the best night’s sleep ever.


By this stage, my days begin to blur. I begin to learn what truly being in the ‘Now’ actually means. Time doesn’t matter here and my mind is set aside for the soul and heart to operate for maximum healing and experiences in Abadiania. Only Ego (the mind) operates on past and present.

Sherril and I take our time to enjoy the beautiful breakfasts we would become accustomed to – fresh watermelon, payaya, mango, avocado, traditional Brazilian cheese rolls, and beautiful jam. After a leisurely breakfast we walk down the Casa, umbrella’s in hand (we have to remain covered for the next 8 days) and have strict rules in place for diet and activity.

The Casa is open every day, but the sessions with John of God operate Wednesday, Thursday and Friday only. Sherril and I take pieces of paper from the office and write prayers, and wishes, for ourselves, loved ones, friends and family. We enter the main Hall, where we remove our shoes, walk up to the stage and place them in the blessed triangle.  You place your head in the centre of the triangle and your hands touch the outside of it. This sacred triangle is like an interdimensional portal, an energy vortex, and people have been known to feel as if they are sucked into it or that the wall doesn’t exist.

After our blessings we go to the beautiful Casa lookout and meditate. It’s so beautiful here, there are an array of wooden benches here, or just outside of the canopy. It’s a silent area, where you can reflect, or listen to the birds, watch a wandering cow in the fields below and just to Be. Following this a trip to the Casa Bookshop, which is where you can purchase crystal beds, blessed water, buy crystals, books, cds and an array of gifts, all blessed by entity.

On the way back to our Pousada, we stop at Frutti’s – this place is like an institution. We would frequent here 1-2 times each day. My favourite drink at this point is the Strawberry Shake. This place has such an open and friendly ambiance, brightly yellow painted with murals, open aired, and fresh produce. Out the back is like a tropical garden of lush palms, exotic flower trees, and tables with a earthy feel. On certain days they play movies at night for a donation or welcome travellers who wish to share their music. This place is where you get to meet others from all over the world, and catch up with your group. The experience in this small part of town actually reminds me of growing up in a small community. Similarly we didn’t use our mobile phones, and if you wanted to find someone, it usually happened at the right time, or you just ‘knew’ where you would bump into them.

I was humbled by Sherril’s words to me, that I’m an inspiration to her – that every step I take for me is like walking into the unknown. Her demonstrated emotion and care touched me – she said I display such courage. I admit, nobody realises how my very walking is a waking miracle because I refuse to never give up or question what is impossible. The remainder of the day was one of resting, as I felt very tired.

Dinner was shared with my group in the evening. At the moment there are only a few of us, as our remaining Aussies are still stuck in Sydney due to the Chile volcano which has delayed their flights. We adopted an American at Frutti’s; Catherine was travelling alone and like any one new to coming here, you really need a guide and we welcomed her into our Soul Pod.

Topping off this day, we cruised along to Frutti’s for conversation, Keylime pie, and hot chocolate before retiring to bed at 8pm, and slept til 6am.

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